today i feel excluded.
wholeheartedly.
it sucks.
tomorrow i'll feel the same.
by people i like.
by a person very close to me.
and by somebody i don't want to ever have things be awkward with.
especially if things don't go the way someone wants them to go.

i just looked over everything i wrote and realized it makes no fucking sense.
i should delete it.
but i feel like if i do, i'll keep fretting.

INTERJECTION.
today i laughed really hard while watching Cat Face & Doomtree videos.
it made me feel so terrific.


stayin' posi, y'all.

something that makes me cry for no REAL reason

There is a song out there that makes me cry for literally no reason.
I didn't go through a rough time while listening to this song.
I've never associated this song with anyone or anything.
But I cry over it.
Every time I listen to it.
Usually not a weeping cry
Just tears.
My eyes well up with them.
My face gets really warm.
My sinuses cringe.
My chin quivers.
I don't know why.
It just does.
And I have allowed it to bother me to no end.
Today I put this album on in the shop.
Without really thinking that this song is on the album.
And then it came on.
I didn't change it.
I just let the song consume me as usual.
It didn't matter- nobody was in here.
I just finished cleaning the windows, on a whim.
It was like it was meant to be.
I have to hear this song whenever it comes on.

Do what you want but I know who you are
Say what you want but I know what you're thinking
Go where you want but I won't be to far
Go where you want and I know where you'll end up
If you fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back
I'll fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back from you


Perhaps it's just Aaron Marsh's voice
A beautiful vessel for love to travel through
He really is.
In fact, I'll peg it as just that
Aaron Marsh is a man I do not have to fall in love with
I don't even have to know him
He just makes me cry