kill the king

I can only build if I tear the walls down.

I hate myself every day
for not having the time
that others all need from me

but what I hate most
is that my closest friends
apparently believed I was
strangling them

goals for summer:
try to find a way to enjoy brewing grounds again
spend more time with the friends I still have
spend more time with family
become comfortable with my body again
figure out how to de-stress without food