going dutch.

"First off, it’s unfair that you decided to blow Dave off for months and expect him to even want to talk to you now. Why would you expect that when you’ve ignored him since you found out he’s not straightedge anymore? By completely ignoring him/not supporting him in the decision he made for himself it shows that you really don’t care about him, you’re not a real friend and not worth any of his time. You are the one, who burned that bridge, and I gave you multiple oppourtunities to maybe fix that by inviting you to things and then you chose to blow me off also. So trying to fix your friendship with Dave might be too little to late especially after the ways you’ve disrespected Dave and my relationship."


always the bad guy.
i swear.


i'm never falling in love again.
because it always ends up:
dude sells out.
new girlfriend bashes me for ex.
i'm the bad friend.
i'm the bad friend.
i'm the bad friend.
i'm the bad friend.
just because i didn't sell out.
and didn't care enough about dude selling out.

where is there a balance?
why is it bad that i don't give a fuck?
but it's bad if i care too much?
i don't understand.
a year and a half later and shit is still in disarray.
i give up.


EDIT: he comes up anyway in conversation way too often. shitty. but i guess...for two and a half years i was known as Crystal(and Dave). I'll just keep walking through to the next post, guys.

love.life.

Thursday night Jennell and I went to a show at the Borg Ward. Number 9 Hard, Direct Hit! & DRMANHATTAN were playing. All played very well. Thomas Buckholt is so damn cute. I laughed and smiled so much it hurt. Such a great night. Slept over at Jennell's after the show.

Friday morning left at 6am headed to Minneapolis. Stopped in Steven's Point for breakfast with Milam. It was great, we went to South Point...legendary. We got to Minneapolis in the afternoon and immediately started perusing any vinyl we could get our hands on. I found a couple 7"s that I felt obligated to pick up. I also bought the felt2 comic. We went to Muddy's twice on Friday, which is ridiculous, but we really love that place. At one point we were running around downtown searching for a public restroom...so hard to find. Dessa's show was great. She's probably my biggest role model.

I just got tired of writing this post.
Shitty

in short...
i bought a 6 pack of PBR for Joe Mabbot and his girlfriend Nell for letting us stay the night at their house.
i also got 3.5 hours of sleep and then worked the rest of the night when we got back from minneapolis. WIN.

I love my life, every day.

OH.
and i'm staying in Milwaukee...pretty officially. also, WIN.

i wish i could share my life with the world

having everybody back home for the holidays has made me reflect
on the fact that i have a handful of the greatest friends ever.

there was a blizzard in milwaukee 2 days ago
my best friend and i walked about 5 miles through it
tracing triforces and double helixes
in the snow on the MSOE campus
and perusing cheap records at exclusive
(their selection sucks)

post blizzard day:
when everything in the city looks absolutely perfect
we ventured out again
sat down for lunch at an adorable diner by the marquette campus
split a chocolate malt for dessert
took our leftovers to josh's house with a note stating:
"josh-inside is your son. hopefully you can care for him better than i have. love always, rita"
underneath read: "actually is chicken. -jennell and crystal"
left it on the front porch
awesome.
then got mango lassi from bombay sweets on the south side
i love that shit
walked around bayview, checking out all the shops for anything interesting
talked about anal hearse at rush-mor records
jennell found a 7" of a swedish band doing minor threat covers
was only $3. turned out to be fucking awesome.
stopped by collector's edge.
bought the christmas issue of the GREAT LAKES AVENGERS
got a history lesson about Squirrel Girl from the guy behind the counter
he was awesome. Squirrel Girl is awesome. that is all.
went to Brewing Grounds and hung out with Katie all evening while Jennell was working
i read the comic book we got
it's awesome. really funny.
dan/megan/cris came to the shop
jennell got off work and we all went to ian's to grab a slice of pizza
came back to the shop and just spent quality time together until 2am

dan goes back to yale today
:[
bummed.





footnote: if i am indeed moving to california in march, that leaves me with very little time here in wisconsin. it's finally dawning on me. good thing things are not set in stone, yet. because i am having a killer time right now. :]

best night in awhile.

found out about non-newtonian fluid today
insisted that we make some
it was hilarious and epic
some of it is definitely frozen outside right now

went for a walk with jennell.
cvs pharmacy: 2 lbs of reese's peanut butter trees.
walgreens: half gallon of 2% white milk
one hour: adventuring the east side, perusing dumpsters for neat shit.

gave a topper's delivery dude a tree.
then jennell spit out her milk because i said
"...howww would you feel about being the octo-dad?"

came back.
lollin @ loltatz right now with katie & jennell



life is swell.
adieu.